mixed-up

On my way to dance class from work, I was pondering over the first time.

Pregnant?

No.

Old lady?

No.

sacrifice

A wise man once says, “You can have anything in life if you will sacrifice everything else for it.”

What he meant is, nothing comes without a price.

So before you go into battle, you better decide how much you’re willing to lose. Too often, going after what feels good means letting go of what you know is right. And letting someone in, means abandoning the walls you’ve spent a lifetime building.

Of course the toughest sacrifices are the ones we don’t see coming.

When we don’t have time to come up with a strategy, to pick a side or to measure the potential loss.

When that happens, when the battle chooses us, and not the other way round, that’s when the sacrifice can turn out to be more than we can bear.

- Grey A.

a letter to you

Dear friends,

How’ve you been? I had been wondering when and how I should break news to you when I’ve not told you a single thing or more about it. Reason was that everything was not confirmed and how I wasn’t really hopeful about it after witnessing the unexpected circumstances.

At the end of the whole process and troubles over half a year, the confirmation arrived through that mail on one late morning recently.

Green light.

the heart breaks, the dam breaks

note to readers, just in case: you’ll be really helping me greatly by not asking what’s going on and whether i’m alright. i just want to vent it out, vent it out. so you may like to consider twice before you click it below.

hibi no neiro

Here’s an interesting music video clip from japan that ben introduced last night. Bascially, the whole idea is that the whole video was made from webcam recordings and i find some parts are creative.

It makes me think that it can be something rfn/xtomic can try out, using the concept of dance movements/sign language synchronising and displaying different formations in webcams. haha!

the missing piece crumbles

Pain.

I often think how we’ve grown apart or how we have to be careful not to go beyond the line, considering both to be part of life. When fate comes into the play, choice sometimes goes out the window. I’ve always thought of initiating it but insecurities and pain are still fresh, telling me that perhaps not. I guess it’s a pain which makes me feel, at least thankful for those, rare, who are often there for me like they’ve got sixth sense.

Pain comes in all forms. The small twinge, a bit of soreness, the random pain. The normal pain we live with everyday.

I do still think about you sometimes, wishing the good old days can happen again once more time. Then again, for some, not, thinking they may not think the same way as I wish. That’s where I stop and learn to let go. At least, our paths crossed. I really wish you happiness in all you do and may you always be loved.

Most of the time, pain can be managed. But sometimes the pain gets you when you least expect it.

Pain.

You just have to fight through because the truth is you can’t outrun it. And life always make more.

enough is enough

No one likes to lose control. It’s a sign of weakness. And still, there are times when it just gets away from you. No matter how hard you fight it, you fall. And it’s scary as hell. Except, if there’s an upside to free falling, it’s the chance to give your friends to catch you.

- Grey A.